My Fitness Journey | Eating Disorders, Body Transformation, & Finding Happiness
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What’s up guys in today’s video I’m going to be talking about my personal fitness journey where I started how I got started and Where I am today, just looking back to where I first started I feel like I’ve overcame so many things when I first started I could not ever imagine how far I Would have gone but now that I’m looking back at my fitness journey Honestly, I’m so proud of myself when I was younger and my parents took me to dance classes I wasn’t really like a sports kid growing up. I was more of the music minded kid I played piano and I sang but I was never really involved in a sport in eighth grade my dad Enrolled me into a soccer team and I started playing Soccer but after a year of doing that I realized that it wasn’t for me I wasn’t really great at soccer. I Enjoyed it, but it just wasn’t my thing so then fast-forward to freshman year of High school I tried out for the soccer team at school But I did not make the team because I just wasn’t good enough and then sophomore year I decided To try out for track and field because I wanted to be involved in a sport in high school So I tried out for the track and field team I made the team but I wasn’t really that great a track and field I’m personally not Very into running, but I enjoy the other aspects of traffic fuel added hurdles I think hurdles were my favourite Event in track and field other than hurdles I wasn’t really great any other event So I did track field for two years my sophomore and junior year of high school I definitely enjoyed being active but I was still just really weak in high school PE class when the hottest do like the fitness test where you Do push-ups sit-ups Sid Murray and all that stuff I could not do a single push-up and it was really embarrassing but growing up I just never practiced my strength. So I never had enough strength to actually do a push-up So moving forward to my end of junior year my mom passed away. So Senior year I was Just a mess. I did not know Where I was gonna go with my life, I was really stressed all the time. I had college ops I was handling a lot of just family issues So I did not do track and field again my senior year and throughout that whole year I was just very inactive. I did not do any sort of exercise so after the first semester of my senior year I gained a lot of weight because at that point it had been about six months since I did any Form of exercise and I was just eating the same kind of food that I was eating before I was eating a lot of junk food and I just never really care about nutrition and I thought that I Would never have to care about my nutrition. I remember at the end of my first semester of senior year I looked at myself and I said wow. I have never looked this big before growing up. I was never overweight I’ve always been pretty tall and lean but for the first time I was overweight at that point I was 155 pounds and I’m only five seven. So at that point I knew that I was overweight So that’s when I decided to start losing weight, so I decided to take a very Unhealthy approach to losing weight. I still wasn’t exercising but I just was decreasing a lot of my Food intake and at first I just cut out a bunch of job through that I was eating I was eating more at home an associate. I was losing weight I was feeling a little bit better and other people were starting to notice that I was losing weight. So after hearing all the compliments if you were giving me for losing weight, I decided that I wanted to keep going and Make a bigger change. So then I started tracking my calories and week by week. I was just Decreasing my caloric intake and at this point my mind said was that I needed to lose as much weight as possible for my senior prom I took a weight loss to an Extreme I went as low as 800 calories especially closer to prom I remember Just starving myself all the time and on day of prom. I didn’t eat the entire day so that I could look skinny I mean, I lost almost 30 pounds and I was feeling you know Just more happy with my body because I was so small and up until that point I had One goal and that is to get smaller after prom it was just my summer before going to college and I Decided that I needed to keep on losing weight to look good for summer So I kept up with the extreme dieting at this point. I still wasn’t exercising I was just cutting my calories to a point where it was getting difficult for me to Just perform daily activities I remember driving this one time and Just almost passing out because I had no energy to even drive that summer after my senior year I was the skinniest I’ve ever been you know I was feeling great about my body image because I’ve reached my goal of being as small as a little as possible, but Mentally was not happy. I was in a very bad state. I had a terrible body image. I didn’t have any self-confidence and All I could think about at that point was food there’s nothing that occupying my mind more than the next time that I’m gonna eat my food because I Was just in starvation all of the time and after that summer I started my first year of college at UCLA I became addicted to alcohol because in high school I didn’t really party that much but once I went off to college I saw these opportunities and it was just so easy to go to any frat party that you would like to so I Partied a lot and I drank a lot and at that point I was still serving myself, but I took it even further Because I knew that alcohol had so many calories. So I made a decision to not eat any food on the day said I would go out and just drink all of my daily calories in alcohol which is such a bad place to be because after I drink the alcohol I would Feel really shitty and the next thing I wake up I would just do the same I would start myself and almost just punish myself for drinking so much and that was also the time where I developed Binge eating habits, I would go to The dining halls at UCLA. They had really good food, and it’s just like a buffet style all-you-can-eat and I would go by myself sometimes and just eat Thousands of calories in one sitting and I felt like I could not control myself and walking out of the dining halls I will feel so guilty that I understood what I did the next day. I will continue to start myself To make up for the binge eating that I did And two months into college my boyfriend who goes to a different school we were facetiming this one day and he was telling me to go to the gym and Give exercising a try he’s always been really into Exercising he told me that I should go to the gym and get some exercise in because I was so unhappy at the time that Exercising would help just my overall mood because the endorphins are released when you exercise I was really hesitant about going to the gym because I Hadn’t exercised for a year and a half but then that say I Decided to give it a try. So I went to the gym and did cardio on the stationary bike for about thirty minutes Afterwards, I really felt amazing and that’s when I was like, wow. I didn’t know that Exercise can improve your mood so dramatically and since that day I just kept on going to the gym and it did thirty minutes on the bike every time I went and at that point I was starting to just research more about exercise because I’m the type of person if I’m really into something I’ll do lots of research on it and learn as much about it as I Could so I did a lot of research on exercising and I got introduced to resistance training so after about a month to a month and a half of doing just Cardio, every time I go to the gym, I started doing a little bit of resistance training And at first I just started on the machines at the gym. I honestly didn’t know what I was doing I just looked at the little picture so they had on the machines and I try to follow what they were saying I just felt really awkward in the beginning that I didn’t know what to do while everybody else seemed like they knew Everything but I didn’t give up I kept on going to the gym and doing resistance training and I started seeing little changes and that I never Knew that I could get I’ve always looked up to all these girls on social media with amazing bodies And for the longest time I thought it was all genetics that it is something that I could never achieve but after I started doing a little bit of resistance training, I started seeing that my Lifes were getting more tone so I did about two months of just lower body training because I wanted to get More defined legs and a bigger butt I’m sure a lot of girls can relate to that and during about two months I did more research and I started following these Instagram Fitness girls who just share their workouts and I took a lot of inspirations from them and after a while I wanted to Give up her body training a try because I’ve never been able to do anything with my upper body Her body has always been a weak point. I’ve never been able to do a push-up So I started doing a little bit of upper body training here and there and at this point my relationship with food Has changed a little bit because I knew that if it was exercising I could allow myself to eat a little bit more. So I Started bringing up and caloric intake but it was still really low. I was staying at about 13 to 1,400 calories per day and as I was building more muscle, I realized that my Appetite was starting to go up and I allowed myself to eat a little bit more But I was so scared out of my mind that I was gonna gain side because I had a terrible body image issue I just wanted to see myself lean all the time. So I was so scared of gaining fat I didn’t want to see the scale go up so I would increase my calories by a little bit and Just watch the scale and if the skills didn’t change I would increase about a little bit more but as soon as a scale Changed I would bring my calories back down. So I was still in starvation Majority of the time I was doing really intense Exercising and not feeding my body but over the course of I want to say three to four months. I really just focus on gaining strength and Increasing my calories a little by little I didn’t know at the time that this is called the reverse diet But it’s basically something you do if you have a broken metabolism Like I did you just increase your calories slowly to heal your metabolism to get your body to adjust to burning more calories over time, so I was doing that for About six months and in those six months I did resist some training I did a little bit of cardio here and there but I honestly am not that into cardio I enjoy resistance training way more and I Just fell in love with the whole concept That you can’t shape your body the way that you want to so I basically just felt so in control of everything and that’s how I like to feel I always Want to be in some sort of control and when I lose that control I started getting anxiety So I was very strict with going to the gym being on top of my diet. I left myself. No room for error I was just on top of my fitness and my diet all the time and after six months of just doing the reverse diet and continuing my resistance training and just along the way learning more and more about Fitness I did so much research. I watched so many videos and I just felt like I couldn’t get enough of it I loved it so much after that six months going to summer. I Felt like I had gained a good amount of muscle I decided to go into the cut because I wanted to Shred a little bit of the fat and reveal the muscles that I have built over the past six months. I was cutting for about a month or so before I ran into a problem as I cut a little bit too fast so I felt like I was starting myself again, which is not a good place to be for me and My bench eating behaviors started coming back and up until this point I hadn’t been GE in eight months. So the one my binge eating behaviors are coming back I was beating myself up for it and I just felt lost again So I started seeing my therapist again and over these past two or three months I just really worked on all these other aspects of my life that contributed who might been cheatin behaviors I realized I you know binge eating is not Only about food a lot of the times is related to something else that’s going on in your life That is causing that behavior. So I really worked on all these other Aspects of my life over the past two three months and I haven’t had a binging episode in almost three months But these past three months was really the time where I feel like I’ve made the most growth in My fitness journey up until three months ago I was so strict myself that I didn’t allow myself to go out with people I had to measure my food to the gram and I could not miss a day of Going to the gym and right now three months later I feel like my relationship with food and exercise has completely changed now I’m just so much more flexible with my diet I let myself go out to eat when I want to I let myself eat whatever I want and not feel guilty about it I went through this really difficult week just this past month I had to miss the gym and I was having a lot of anxiety over it But after that episode, I honestly learned so much from that right now I’m just okay with missing the gym for a day if I’m busy and I stop putting so much pressure on myself to Be this perfect person that I want to be a siliceous I love in control of everything. Sometimes I just Cannot I need to let go of a little bit of my control to get the best results that I want and since I’ve been more flexible with myself I realized that I’ve actually made more progress when I was training So consistently my body wasn’t getting a break and now that I’m giving my body more rest I’m making so much more progress and over the past month. I’ve also started getting into personal training Ever since I started my fitness journey. I have kind of been interested in personal training But but this past month was when I really took action and started my personal training course And I’m so close to getting my personal training certification I just started realizing that you can’t put all your eggs in one basket Because if you are putting everything into this expected outcome, and it doesn’t happen You’re gonna be so disappointed and that was my whole relationship with the gym. I expected so much out of myself Every time that I was at the gym and if the gym session didn’t go well I would be so disappointed now I’m just learning to trust the process If I have a shitty session, that’s fine I’ll go back to the next day and crush the next session and I’m so so proud of how far I’ve come I’ve decided to Start my YouTube channel and to get my personal training certification because I just want to help other people reach their fitness goals without ever having to Go to an extreme You don’t have to starve yourself to reach your goals and you don’t have to be at the gym seven days a week Two hours a day to reach your fitness goals. There is a balanced way to do it And now that I’ve done it I want to help other people do the same and I’m gonna conclude this video right here I hope you guys enjoy this video Make sure you give this a like and subscribe to my channel and I’ll see you guys in my next video

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